Wow. I can't believe it has been this long since I last wrote. Holy Cow.

Well, quick update.

I am in Wisconsin, interning in the Child Care here as well as driving a school bus. I am doing that until May. I have a few summer plans but after that, it seems like I will be moving home for a year.

Life is going well. It presents it's challenges and drama but that just makes you realize more and more how dependent you are on God.

I don't have anything spectacular to share that you haven't probably already heard. But just something that has been on my heart and mind. I'm not sure if it will even make sense because the past few days have been hectic and all my thoughts are unorganized...but I will try anyway.

A couple weeks ago, I started driving my afternoon routes. I began thinking about life and how it is a vapor. We don't know when our short lives on earth will end. This has especially been in the forefront of my mind recently because my mom got in an accident in December totalling our van, Amber and DJ got in one in January smashing the back of their van and the same month someone who used to go to NTBI had a serious bus crash. So I was fearing I'd be next. As I was driving along, I came to realize how I always count down the days or hours until something is over; an event, a busy day, etc. But instead of dreading the Monday to come and waiting till the day finally comes and ends, I should be living day by day, minute by minute and making the most out of the days we live. Loving everyone in our lives and everyone we come in contact with instead of setting a day that I want to be over week after week.

So as my work day was coming to an end and my crazy elementary kids loaded on my bus, I thought to myself, "Lord, if I get into an accident, please let it be without any kids on my bus."

I dropped my last student, Hannah, off and we waved to each other as I passed. I was clear and headed back to base.

I was a few miles from dairyland when I was approaching a light that was green for me. I continued, observing traffic. I noticed a red car from my right who was not going to yield to me before turning right into my lane. As I was going just under 45mph, I slammed on my brakes and then on the horn. It had just rained so the roads were a little slick. So off I slid, closer to her car, one hand gripping the wheel and the other on the horn in hopes she will move or stop. Indeed, she stopped. Right in my lane at an angle so the corner of my bus was headed right for the drivers door.

With my sister being in a very serious bus crash, seeing the pictures and driving by the place a few times a day, I can visualize what happened and put myself there. I can in no way feel the pain and scars that she endured, but just picture it wondering what it would be like and how I would react in such a situation and feeling for her.

So as I slid, I looked at the young girls helpless face as she sat their still, staring up at me, and not knowing what move to make. She had the look of horror on her face hoping I would stop in time. I came to a stop, barely touching her car. We pulled over and I got out making sure the young girl and her little sister were alright. They said they were fine so I went and radioed it in. As we waited for my safety manager, I was able to talk to the girl. She told me she just got her car weeks ago and they were just heading home. I tried to calm her down and we took a look at her car. There was an 2 by 2 inch scratch in the middle of the drivers door. If I wasn't able to slow down in time, the corner of my bus would have pushed clear into the drivers seat. But the girls were fine! PRAISE GOD. Only He was able to stop my bus in time.

After a few tears and the nerves of the day finally calmed down, I realized what a blessing in disguise this was:

1) We were able to clear the accident quickly so no cops were involved. Seeing there was no major damage to my bus, there was no need for any cops.

2) She didn't get any tickets. She was a very young driver so it was a good lesson for her.

3) Usually there is an investigation with Dairyland. But she admitted to it being her fault and it was clear that it wasn't my fault.

4) It made me extra cautious and realizing the damage my "tank" can really do, how important my job really is, and what a bit responsibility it is.

5) Made her more cautious while driving and how serious it is.

It was a real shocker but a great lesson.

Lets not take our lives or anyone Else's life for granted. Lets enjoy each day and love each person. Lets live for God daily, minute by minute. You never know when you may be breathing your last breathe or when someone walks out the door, it may be the last time you see them!

15K:]

So today maddie and I skipped church to watch Cherith and Tim run the 15K Turkey Run! We told him we would come watch and support him not knowing it ended up happening on a sunday morning! It was a lot of fun! I had never been to a race before. In this one, they all predicted how long it would take them and the first 50 people closest to their time won a turkey! Cherith got 4TH!! She was only 30 seconds too fast. She regretted running a little faster to the finish line:) Tim's time was a ways off, but he got 41 out of 100! This is the only picture we got. We had major camera problems. Maddies 6 batteries that she thought were charged werent. Then i had my phone, so i snapped the one of tim! But then charith soon followed. As I went to snap the picture my phone said the memory was full. Darn it. They ran such a good race! Im so proud of them both! :]

Just feet away from the finish line!

Oh my lanta..

Thought I would post a few pictures along with this post.

How can I resisit?! These are a few of our dorm pictures we took a few weeks ago!! :)

Oh my lanta..I don't even know what to say!
Its been what.. 6 months? Yikes.
So here is my attempt, at 1am, to start this thing back up.. I say that everytime. We'll see what happens.

So, like I love to do, Ill write out my schedule so you can see what my daily life looks like. :)

5:00--bright eyed and bushy tailed and time for a shower.
5:54- run out the door and barely make it to the 5:55 shuttle.
5:55-- head to work.
8:35-- get back from work and head to class.
9:00-- classes start and continue straight until lunch.
12:30-- lunch
1:10-- Biblical Greek! (yes, I am taking greek...so far alright;)
2:00-- Run out of class to barely catch the 2:05 shuttle yet again.
2:05-- hitch my ride to work
4:15-- get off work and head back to the school
4:30-- start my cm. which is now one of the girls bathrooms!
5:00-- squeeze in some greek homework
5:30--dinner
5:50-- dish crew every third week. (this week is mine;)
6:30-- homework, homework, homework!
11:00ish-- I can usually make it to bed! (yup..im doing so much better than i was last semester!) :)

6 hours or less of sleep... then I start it all over again.

My homework load has been alright.. several several hours a night at most points. But its really good, I just wish at times I could spend more time on it then I am able to, but I just do not have that kind of time!

Oh my stars! God has been doing some amazing things in my life. He is teaching me lots in class and out of it! He has filled me with such joy even when things are not going the greatest! He has been reminding me how good He really is even when my circumstances arn't so good! Also not worrying and freakin out about stuff such as work, school, cm issues...and everything else known as life. I have no reason to worry, the all knowing, all powerful God of the universe has got it covered. What am I thinking? That I can do a better job. Bahaha.. yeah. right. :) All the things I was worrying about before this semester began; Which room I would get, what roomates I was going to have, what my 4 routes were like for work, if I would like and get along with this new freshman class... and so on. Looking back, I did much more worrying about these things then I should have. They have all worked out perfectly! God is truely amazing! My RA is freakin awesome! LOVE her! My roomies are so great! We have such good times! My CM just got switched...so far it has been so great and I like it:) (even though it is a bathroom), my room is probably one of the greatest rooms on campus, and as for the new freshman class...I LOVE THEM! They are all so great! I have really enjoyed getting to talk and hang out with them! They are so fun!

Classes have just been so amazing, I want to take them all again! :] Romans, pnumatology, 1 &2 Peter, James, Angelology/Demonology/Satanology, Family Relationships Class, and others that I cant think of at the moment. As I said, I am taking Bibical Greek! AHHHHH! It's crazy! The teacher, Jason Weaver, does an AMAZING job teaching it, He is so gifted! The WHOLE time is full of class participation and humiliation. ;) It is so good even though you feel stupid next to those few students that seem to be able to speak fluently now and I feel like I am lagging so far behind! But apparently he said everyone starts feeling this way once we are getting to this point. We are only a third of the way through. 6 more weeks! AHHH! :) This semester is FLYING by! I cant even believe it!

Well, I would love to write more.. but.. it is almost 2. I havent stayed up this late for ages. I keep feeling like today is friday night. We have today, friday, and this next monday off work because the kiddos get off school for some parent/teacher conference. Psh. heck. I dont mind... but I would rather work to earn some money.. but God will provide, He ALWAYS does in odd, strange ways! But all day it has been throwing me off:)

Okay, love you all. And I will try and post some pictures and keep you updated a lil bit on my life!! <3

1 year old jaylea:]

here are some pictures of jaylea and her parents!!

God's will is perfect, but not always painless.

we had adventures..

..and we had fun!

Well.. I havent really wrote much on my blog so none of you really heard about Jake.

We had been going out for almost 6 months but as of march 18th we made it official that we are just going to be friends. we had been praying and thinking about us for some time and we decided that we believe it is God's will for us to just be friends. The night before we spent several hours talking, crying, and laughing together. It was a reallyyy hard decision. But we both knew this was God will for both of us right now. we both still really care for each other but want God's will.

One of the hardest things for me... is when i see him, i cant think... oh, theres my jake or want to run up and hold his hand... i cant spend time and talk to him like i did before. I have to change my mindset which is what im having the hardest time with seeing all we have done and been through together..

I knew some of you knew but not all of you so i decided to let you all know.

On to a happier subject..

..i am at mtc [the new tribes missions training center] with amber, dj, and jaylea. thats how i am spending my spring break. :) very relaxing and im really enjoying all the time i get to spend with them:)

Jaylea turned 1 March 22nd! :] it was almost a year ago when i posted about her being in the hospital on Easter day. Its so awesome to see her grow! She has realized how vocal she can be and is on the verge of walking.. she's almost got it. :D i will post some pictures of her in another post.. it will just be easier that way.. :)

surprise:]

This is what keeps us going when we pull all nighters..it happens..often..

tacobell run anyone?! :]

this..is jake:)

SNOW:]

what keeps me alive and awake:]

My lil baby!

My monster:D

it looks shorter than it really is!

im alive:) some of you have been asking if i am and asking me to post something!!

sorry to some of you who i havent replied too. I have been soooo busy. Okay..i know everyone says that..but let me explain to you how busy i really am..

..here is my current schedule...

..enjoy:)..

now remember..this is my daily schedule..and will be this WHOLE semester.

5:30-6:00--wake up and get ready for work

6:10-8-50--at work[buses] i have a 45 minute layover inbetween routes..so that gives me some time to catch up on homework!

i have 10 minutes to get to class.

9:00-12:30--classes

12:30-1:00--lunch

1:10-2:00--class

2:10-4:30--at work [buses]

4:45-5:30--my CM [campus ministry. I clean all second floor]

5:30--dinner

5:50-6:30--dinner dish crew. every three weeks i am on this..and this week is mine..:/
6:30-7:00--shower

7:00-?--homework
then off to bed to wake up and do this all over again. yikes. I know.

and then i have my dorm room chore..mine this week is trash. and it needs to get takin out almost every day.

So anyway..thats my day..everyday. at least I get weekends off work:)

My classes have been grrreat! The ones this semester have been more intense this semester. We have Prophets Class, Theology, and Hermenutics 2!

Our Prophets teacher is new. And EVERYONE at this school knows that new teachers mean a lot of homework. after being there for several years..they drop the homework load. This class goes til march 18th. Once we ALL looked at the syllabus, we all decided we were going to have a party the night of the 18th.. if we all survive that is:)

God has been sooo GOOD!! Even tho things have not gone so smoothly since being here. With money, class credits, and work.. but its just going grrreat and can only give God the credit.

ok..i need to run..

im at Caribou doing homework with jake.. finished for tonight.. and thought id say hi and catch you up a lil bit. I have a chapter and a half left of Basic Theology by Charles Ryrie, but not to worry..i have my layover tomorrow morning to get it done..so then i have something to do!!

i love you all! :D

Chicken Noodle Soup, Volleyball, and Seven Brides for Seven Brothers:]

Hmm..yeah..I haven't said a thing in a long time..
..sorry bout that.
Today..has been grreat. Mainly because I'm feeling so much better. If you didn't know, I was sick. Yes, only a two weeks into school..and I got sick..along with a bunch of others, its now spreading! So today, was grreat!
Last night, I mentioned to a friend that it would be soo nice to have chicken noodle soup. So, he texted me and told me to wake up early and he'd bring some. So, at 5:30, I woke up, got dressed and headed down to the lounge. As I sat down, he came in with a big hot bowl of chicken noodle soup..Ahh..:] I have never had soup in the morning..but will remember that the next time I'm sick..it tasted so good and felt wonderful on my throat. So after we ate our soup..he headed off to buses.
Seeing I got up soo early, I got to get some homework done, cleaned my desk, and had all my stuff ready to head down to classes..an hour early:]
Another thing..I saw Mr. Oliver at breakfast. Yes, I did go to breakfast after I ate soup..jus so I could get me some eggs! And yes..he remembered me and even knew my name. haha!
Anyway..so we are having tournaments..Monday is soccer, Tuesday is volleyball, Wednesday is hockey..and the list goes on. I'm on a soccer team and a volleyball team. Our volleyball team is called, Hello Kitty. Yeah, I know..gay right. haha. But anyway..I am soo proud of my team..we played a team of staff and their kids[rumor has it that two of them are on the high school volleyball team..] so, we played best out of three. The first game, was crazy..we bounced back from 4-12 to 11-12...but they ended up winning the first game by two. Then, the second game, we were ahead the whole time until the end, then it was back and forth, back and forth for a long time till finally, they won by two. So, yes, we lost, but it was so nerve wracking..we almost had it. So, I am pumped for next weeks game! Dude, we were so pleased with how well we did..so it didn't matter that we lost..we just had a great time. Even tho people did make fun of our name. ;]
Next, after the game, several of us came into the lounge. We were naming off older movies, Yours, Mine, and Ours, Court Jester...and finally we got to Seven Brides for Seven Brothers. Timmy announced that we had to watch it sometime..when I remembered I had it:] so a bunch of us..even the guys..sang along and quoted most of the lines..just laughing..
Ahh..theres nothing like it..plain beautiful:]

ohh, and by the way..PLEASE PRAY for me and two others who are taking our CDL[commercial drivers license] test tomorrow[about 3-5pm Florida time]. I heard its a intense test, but the trainer thinks we are ready. Please pray God calms our hearts and minds and we take our time on the test and remember everything we have to say..and we won't forget anything. Thank you!!

I put on my mexico shirt today..

why? cause today is the first day the team will be in Mexico:]
sigh. I don't even know what to write. It's been a hard couple weeks. I am having mixed emotions. The team is there..they made it. It's just so weird..why am I not there..why am I way up here..in Washington..when they are all down in Mexico..at this very minute..all the people I love, in one of the places I love the most. Don't get me wrong..I love all the people in Washington and Montana..but..its just, I learnt so much there..the relationships you build while there are amazing..
I miss the Mexicans..
I miss the drive back to the ranch while Monte drives..
I miss the dryness..
I miss the missionaries..
I miss the time spend with the team..and the closeness you get with everyone..
I miss the brickyard..
I miss the food..
I miss the orphanage..
I miss the mountains..
I miss the rain..
I miss the swing set..
I miss the sunrises and sunsets..
I miss city..
I even miss Polly..the annoying, barking chihuahua that lived next door..
and even the cockroaches..which you knew were near once you heard the shriek of a girls voice followed by the pounding of a flip flop against the cool tile floor trying to kill it!
I miss it all!
The list could honestly go on and on.
I am so overjoyed for the team tho..they get to experience all that..I just wish I was there to experience it with them..
but I know..God's will is PERFECT! and there is a reason why they went and some stayed..
I am so glad Hannah got to go..:] for the third time..how great is that! :]
I just can't stop smiling...I am sooo happy for them!
And..they are updating the blog daily..check it out..I know I'm going to be checking it every evening:)
And I am going to go to a few Mexican restaurants while they are down there..just so I can somewhat join in on the fun..and remember all I learnt and experienced there..and we got some good Mexican places up here..:]
Oh..also..a couple of the team members said they wanted something to take along on the trip that would represent me..seeing I couldn't go..we thought and thought...some mentioned a life size picture of me..but I immediately said no to that. But we agreed to a bobble head turtle, one I got from Mexico last year:] So, Megan the Turtle has made it their safely..that I know of..Bastian is taking care of her..I'm hoping she doesn't come back with a broken neck..or even get lost:]
well..its late..and I must get going..I need to wake up somewhat early..going to babysit my three lil cousin in the morning:]

love you all!

p.s..amber, dj, and jaylea get here in a little over a day..I am soo excited:] I cant wait to see them...ahhh:]

ohh..p.s.s..;] I am allergic to bee stings..and you guessed it..I got stung..two days ago..and can you believe it..its gotten worse..swollen, red, hurting, and itching. That's what going on with my ankle at the moment. Ahh...and the swelling is spreading around my ankle and up the leg..if you could pray it get better and not infected..that'd be grreat!!! :]

It's a sad, sad day..

I'm missing slurpee day:/ and already missed free chicken day (cow day:) at chickfila...why doesnt the north have such places..sigh..who needs those calories anyway..(bare with me while I try and talk myself into thinking its not as exciting as it really is)..

It's Actually July.

I just realized that the other day.
June has honestly, been the longest month..I have ever experienced in my life.
Throughout this month, I have quit my job..which in a way, seem like several months, but also like I could just run and get that uniform on and jump on in and help with the lunch rush! ;) The week after I quit, my chick-fil-a got a new owner and two managers. I got introduced to him by Melanie(the former boss) and he acted like it wouldn’t be a problem for me to come back and work there when I am on my summer break! Which would be so amazing..then I wouldn’t have to go through the chore of finding a new job, going store to store, filling out applications, interviews…and all that junk! :] Or, another option, is, my friend, Lee, who used to be a manager at chick-fil-a..but is now working at Olive Garden, said he could probably get me a job there for the summer as a hostess. I think that would be an exciting job..for a change!
Ok..back to all what happened this month. :]
I spent the weekend I quit my job with few girls from the mission. Originally, we were going to have a big sleepover for my birthday..but it never worked out. So a couple girls organized a girls weekend! Earliesh Saturday morning, we headed to the beach!! I guess I should add pictures! If I have time I will..or else they will have their own separate post! :] So anyway, we went to the beach and walk along the shore, then, went back to the car and got our lunch, then took it down to the beach to eat it. Then, after awhile, we made our way to Maitland and checked into our hotel room. If I remember correctly, the rest of the girls went down to the swimming pool and Jenna, Sarah, and I sat up on the bed talking and eating most of the bag of candy! :] hehe! Then, we went over to Cranes Roost, Jenna brought her guitar, and we just had a great night worshipping and singing praises to God! It was such a great night, during our time of singing, a girl walked by..then started walking back towards us, she came and joined us! Since then, she has actually hung out with us a time or two which is really neat!! We then went back to the hotel and played games, got massages, and watched a movie..but I feel asleep before they watched it! :] The next morning, we went to Cranes Roost and had a bible study and some more songs..what a great morning that was! :] Thank you girls for putting that whole weekend together..it was such an amazing time! I loved it! Then, on our way back to Sanford, Mary, Jenna, and I hung out at the mall for awhile while I was waiting for my ride from Richie. Which brings me to my next thing..
Chick-fil-a was all meeting at Chilies, their treat..[free meal..why not;] no, but the reason was to meet the new owner and managers and to say goodbye to all our former owner and managers.
Lets see..what happened next..
Mary, Sarah, and I, went out to get a tan. I was set on coming up north tan while everyone up here would still be white. Well..we ended up being out there longer then expected all because of Dove chocolate. It melted in the sun, so we had fun putting it on our lips, making a mustache, and putting hearts on our faces. And the tanning results were…a burn, which turned to into a solid layer of lil blisters all over my chest. I should put a picture of that just to gross y’all out! :]
Ohh my goodness..so much happened..i’m having trouble remembering it all. Lets see..
Some friends from church came over one night to watch a movie. It was Seven Pounds..none of em had seen it!! I think its pretty good! :]
Our MK youth group had a summer BBQ type thing..which was a lot of fun!! That night..we also met two new aussie friends. Their family was staying in the guest house. James and Heidi! We showed them around. And also got them in trouble by their father. Ya see..we went were down in the lobby talking till midnight, then we went over to the new park and talked..actually hiding while the security guard made her rounds, then went over to the schools playground which is where their father found us..he was furious and it was late. Anyway..but it was a grrreat night.
Oh, one night, Chad came over to hang out with us..we ended up playing Pinochle. I learned to play it in 4th grade, I didn’t really like it then, it was more like a chore cause they made me…cause there wasn’t enough people for teams unless I played! But I enjoyed it this time. And that was the night chad brought back my ring from png that I ordered! So I was really excited! :] Thanks Chad!
Another night, a bunch of us girls rented one of the guest house rooms. We had a great night..games, scary stories..jenna lead us all around outside while telling one, and singing out on the riverwalk in the middle of the night! (hair on the bathroom ceiling) I’m probably missing something..
Saying a bunch of goodbyes. And the morning I left..Matt and Sarah got up real early to see me off. We left 5 o’clock sharp. Not to mention matt lives 30 min away. That meant so much guys..thanks! :]
We then got to Seattle, Wa, and made our way up to Bellingham..the place where I grew up!
The next night..we were able to go to a cousins birthday party, and got to see a bunch of family. Which was exciting!
Also..our three lil cousins, Eleiya, Anika, and Alder took just a few minutes to warm up..and now..its like we never left!! It was great spending a couple days with them.
Also..we spend a day in the hospital..my uncle kyle..who is only 8 years older than me and like a brother..and something wrong with his teeth..im still not completely sure, but, he couldn’t open his mouth, had a hard time breathing, and was is so much pain. But he is doing so much better now!
We made the day drive..12 hours or so to Montana. While here..we went to Monarch, spent time with some family that came down to see us, and have played plenty of games:]
Also, we had to speak at a church…like I said in my last post..it went..well. I thought I could of done better..but ohh well. We’ll see how the other ones do.
All this to say…it has been such a long but grrreat month..the best of my life..seriously..minus the goodbyes;]
Go ahead and remind me of all the other stuff we did the month of june..I forget a lot of it!
love you all:)

Made it to the land of casinos, mountains, and cowboys!

Yup..thats right..we made it to Montana!

The other day..we went with my uncle Chris and lil cousin Austin to a waterpark..just a little one. So that was fun to go down the slides, be in the sun, and just spend some time with them.

Last night, Jenna, Sarah, Mary, and a few girls that were just visiting called me during Good News! We probably talked for a couple hours. It was good to hear their voices. :] I don't know..it's great being over here visiting family..but, I just feel like I'm missing out on so much by not being down there..but, now that I think about it, I guess I'm missing out on some grreat times here with all the time I'm thinking about how much I'm missing there. haha!

Well, we just rehearsed what we are going to say and do at church this Sunday. I havent even thought about what I am going to say tho, and its in just a few days. Goodness sake..I better think about that. And we have to sing for offering..ugh..wow..the life of an MK..just keeps getting better..:)

Wow..earlier I thought of so much more I could say..guess my mind has shut down for the night.

I honestly dont know what else there is to say..except..please pray for us as we give our presentation this sunday..and the following ones..that the people will come with open hearts and ears. This is a weird prayer request..but, would you just pray that I will be truly happy..and not wearing a mask. I dont know whats come over me just recently..I guess I just feel numb..and at times like I'm just sitting back in the distance, watching whats going on..with not much to say..thanks..

I love you guys.. <3

29 days left..but lets not think about that..;]

Well, I have nothing deep to say or anything to that will make you think...but I wanted to write anyway..its been a long time!

I have 29 more days. Not that i'm counting down or anything...;] I really shouldn't..its pretty depressing..but, I'm excited to see what God has in store for me this summer and the next two years!! We come back around Aug 4th, and will be here for about two days, then we are heading up on the long drive, again, to Wisconsin! My room is in the process of getting torn down. I am moving into my sisters smaller room, and she will get the nicer, bigger one! :] I have all posters, random papers, and pictures off my walls. Its starting to look quite bare. I got rid of about 20 walmart bags full of old clothes that I will no longer wear! And I have most of the stuff I am going to take to Wisconsin together! But there is still a lot to do!

My niece is doing so much better then she was on Easter! Thank you all for praying for her! She still has a sensitive stomach...but Amber just has to watch what she eats more so now..and not eat things that will irritate Jaylea. I cant wait to see them in July!! They are coming out to Washington for our family camp! She will be almost 5 months then!! She is getting so old!

Another thing..i am loving this stormy weather!! Just beautiful! :D

I love overcast days. And I love the rainy stormy days too..like today!!

This picture shows you perfectly, how we feel about each other! ;] Chad is leaving today, to go to my home, papua new guinea. He better have a great time!!

I love you Jenna!! :D I just had to put this picture on!!

I don't know what is going on here..:]

There we go..

Oh, so I got my new laptop today..for college!! Yay!! I love it! Most people think its silly that I never had my own computer till now. hehe!! But I am enjoying it so much. Which means hopefully I'll be blogging more! But that's what I seem to say every time! :)

Well, that's all for now folks! :)

Scared to Death..

Where do I even start...
So yesterday morning..Jaylea was, for the most part, acting normal, she went most of the night, not wanting to eat..and that morning, was the same. She was sleepier then normal. She slept all the way through church..without a peep. On the way home, my mom tried to feed her with a bottle, she would drink some, but then let it all run out of her mouth down her chin and neck. If she did swallow some..she would just spit it all up. This was not the Jaylea we know. She is a good eater. As we got home..she didn't want to eat again. She missed several feeding times. By this time, she didn't even want to wake up..she might of opened her eyes for a lil bit..but then..she would fall back to sleep. Amber was getting worried. At one point, Jaylea rolled her eyes to the back of her head. DJ assured her she would be alright. So Amber decided to lay down..she later fell asleep. We were going to go out to eat for Easter...but decided to wait, to see if we could get her to eat.
DJ sat on the couch, with Jaylea sprawled across his lap. She never would sleep like that, maybe the first day or two of her life..but not now..at three weeks. You could put her in any uncomfortable position, and she would just lie there..completely out of it. I went and sat next to DJ..as I held her lil hand, she usually, even when asleep, would grab onto my finger tight..and not let go..even if I would try and pull away, but this time, as I held her hand..she didn't hold my hand back..her lil hand would just plop back to her side if I let go. As I sat there..watching my lifeless lil girl..all I could do was pray..something was wrong..and we didn't know what it was. She wasn't being responsive, she wouldn't even cry, she was limp, lethargic, she didn't want to eat, all she wanted to do was sleep, and we couldn't really wake her up and keep her up. Some of us took a nap..or just sat and waited...
I woke up to DJ on the phone with Jaylea's doctor..I heard,"So that's not normal right? You want us to go to the Children's Hospital? Ok, thanks." We all got ready to go to. I new something was definitely wrong when he came out with Jaylea in her car seat..still sound asleep..cause she hates getting in that thing..she usually crys when they try and get her in there..even if she was sleeping.
As I heard my sister, bawling while getting all Jaylea's things together..I had to fight back the tears. It was one of the scariest things that I've gone through. I have grown so attached to my lil girl..I love her with all my heart..now..my heart was breaking..I'd do anything to help her..to make her well and herself again..I didn't know what the doctors would say..but tried not to think the worst.
We made our way to the Hospital..it seemed like eternity..I wanted to get my lil baby there. She sat there sleeping..quiet, the whole trip which isn't her..she usually would lay there eyes wide open just looking at her surroundings..worry and tears were just building up...ready to burst.
Finally, we made our way to the emergency room. Oh my goodness..I have never seen the nurses move so slow..guess it doesn't go as fast as the movies show. As we got settled down, waiting for her name to be called..we all took turns going to the single bathroom. I sat there..fighting back the tears..waiting for my turn..I happened to be the last one in line. The minute I opened the door to the bathroom, I just burst into tears..crying my heart out. I was scared to death..praying she would be alright. Just wondering what was wrong with my precious baby, and hoping it would not be serious. I hurried up..and applied more makeup and made my way back out.
A bit later..Jaylea started crying..which I know at least relieved me a lil. Amber tried feeding her again, right when the nurse called her name. They made their way to one of the rooms, a bit later, DJ called all us back there..and we sat in the lil hospital room, waiting for the doctor.
They asked a bunch of questions..and by this time, Jaylea was wide awake..so the doctor couldn't see how she had been acting all day long. One of the reason she was wide awake..was probably cause they had to take her temp though her lil bottom..and she started crying..so..that woke her up a lil. But we still don't know why she seemed almost normal in front of the doctor..we just sat there confused..but amazed. The doctors ended up just sending us home after a few lil tests and such. But did set her appointment with Jaylea's doctor for today..instead of Wed.
We are still worried..cause it didn't seem like the doctors understood how she was throughout the whole day..but we are hoping some of the questions will be answered today at her checkup..and she will not go through that again. She is starting to eat a bit more..and once we got home and Amber fed her..she didn't spit up once. :)
Could you please be praying she continues to eat more and keep it all down and will gain more energy as time goes on..ohh, and that she gains more weight..she still weighs about 6 pounds..and today marked her three week and one day birthday! :)
Sigh..yesterday was such a long emotional day..but glad she is doing better!
I love you guys! See you soon!

p.s..we are heading out today..not sure what time..but will be there tomorrow!

Dont get stuck..

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You see..ok, well, this might sound weird..and I dont know how this will turn out..its late..I'm feeling sick..and I need to go to bed..but, I just wanted to share something I've been thinking about..
Since I got up to Wisconsin..I've been realizing how I was stuck in this weekly routine..I was so involved and had my mind wrapped around everything going on..that is if I wasn't on robot mode...I worked everyday 8 or 9 to around 5 with both jobs(except sundays:)..and in the evenings, I either had one of two youth groups, awana, and good news sessions:)..but had a few evenings to catch up on some things..weeks just flew by..which turned into months..
I got to the point, where I didnt really want to go to NTBI anymore, cause so much was going on there, I was just plain comfortable. I know, one of my favorite sayings is,"Nothing great comes from being comfortable." And that's where I was, comfortable in my own lil town, and my own lil circle of friends...in a lil bubble. But, then, when I got up here, I woke up and realized how much more God has for me outside of my lil bubble. As I have mentioned before about how there are awkward relationships and how I'd rather go someplace new and have a clean slate..well, I have different thoughts on that now. That may sound better..that is my plan and how I would want it to turn out, and not Gods. And now, I am really excited to move up here and go to school mostly from talking to Kristyna and Kelly(DJ's sisters..it seems like I have known them forever..just its just been a couple years!) about school, the classes, and how great the teachers are..hehe!
I am going to miss everyone so much..sigh..its gonna be real, real tough..but I am really excited about moving up here now..its where God wants me to be..and'm excited to see what God has in store for me up here.
Another thing...I am officially accepted into NTBI Waukesha..the only thing that they were waiting for was a picture and my physical form(which I had both done..but just needed to send them in)..once I got here..and realized how much I wanted to go..and saw that this is what God has for me the next couple years..so I sent those things off..and they emailed me back right away and told me I was accepted and was going to get some things in the mail..how exciting! :)
Man..there were a few more things I wanted to add..thats what I get for doing it so late..I forget..or is that cause of my old age?! ;)
Now..all this happened pretty much before I heard the news that possibly..if all goes well...Maddie...remember her..she came to visit..and I said how I wasn't going to see her for two more years..well, she is coming to the states in a couple months..but anyway..like I was saying, if it all works out..she is planning on going to NTBI in Waukesha...this Fall believe it or not. This past year, we'd talk about colleges, and she wasnt sure..our original plan...when I was in like, 7th grade, we planned to go together. But, then, she wanted to go to a different college and just wasnt sure if she wanted to go to NTBI right off the bat..which was perfectly fine...and I accepted it and figured she wasnt going to go the same year. Then, a couple nights ago..I caught her online, and one of the first things she said to me was.."I just finished my application to NTBI." I was overjoyed! I mean, there is still a possibility that she might not go...but I'm praying she will be able to!!
Wow..ok..I need to go to bed..
..I'll see you all soon..very soon...two more days here...one full..21hours(if all goes well) drive back..and I'll see you guys again!
Tomorrow we are meeting up with Uncle Karl and Aunt Maribeth..friends from PNG..and from the NTM training..I've known them since 3rd grade..so that will be a lot of fun!
well, goodnight my dear friends..I love you! :)

It doesnt get any better then this...

..i was told to put pictures of Jaylea and me..:) so this afternoon..we had some fun with the camera! :]

..more to come..hmm..i just realized..that they all pretty much look the same..ohh well!!

Coming Soon...
Jaylea Karyn's First Visit to the Bowling Ally!

..Be Excited..
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