She is tooo adorable!

Ahhhh...she is just tooo cute for words!! There are words across her face cause I snatched it off the hospital website...you have to buy it..i might just do that..cause its such a great picture!! :) She is just so stinkin adorable! :)

I'd like to introduce you to...

...my niece, Jaylea Karyn Royer!

She made her grand entrance on Sunday March 22nd at 6:43pm[i believe:]

Welcome to the world darlin..i love you! :]

We are heading up there in less then two weeks! It seems like i wont see her in forever..I feel like when I finally get to see her..she will already be walking and talking..haha! Thats how long the next two weeks will be!! I cant wait to sit in a rocking chair with her and tell her stories! :)

..babies, birthdays, summer stuff, and school! :D

Ohh my stars..so many good things have happened this week and in the months to come!

1) It was my birthday! I admit..I was not looking forward to this day..not one bit. The BIG two-oh! Thats just so old, I am no longer in the teens..eww. Ever since I was real real little, I wanted to be like Peter Pan...I never wanted to grow up...guess I was really just lazy, I didnt want to pay all the bills, be responsible, make all the choices [not getting told what to do pretty much by the parents], having a job the rest of my life...and just being out on my own. Its just plain scary. But I ended up having a fantastic day. I had to work at chick-fil-a, but they went easy on my all day..hehe! And they made Dima and me a milkshake each[cause she shares my birthday too..I guess I share hers..cause she is older then me:] and they stuck a candle in the whipcream and sang happy birthday! :P Thank you all for the messages, hugs emails, comments, hugs, phone calls, voicemails, and more hugs! :) It was a great day! Which brings me to the second one...

2) Lil James Eli Harris was born 11:50am, 8.5lbs, and 22 in long! :D according to Josh, he is the cutest ever, he is awesome, manly, and a good looking boy! And I agree! He sure is adorable!! What a great present to get...lil James Eli!! We are birthday buddies! [or you could say birthday twins:] And I havent told James yet, but we are going to be best friends..like this *crosses middle and pointer finger* We'll be pretty tight! hehe! :) "All this..."<--guess some of you will get that! :P

3) Tomorrow..I am going to Dare 2 Share. Im not quite sure what to expect..its my first year going...but i'm very excited to see what God is going to teach me and what all He has to say to me this weekend! :)

4) I am going to go to Wisconsin the beginning of April..to welcome my lil niece into the world! :) Yep..i'll be an aunt..and I am just so excited! And when I go up to ntbi..they will be at mtc[the bootcamp/language school] So we will just be 6 hours away from each other! :) I am going to be the aunt that spoils her with shoes..just converses..I have bought her two already..they are so lil and cute! hehe!

5) This summer...will be spent in Washington..yes..I am not going to mexico..as much as I want to, sigh. I havent told Josh no yet, officially, but I will probably start crying when I tell him no. Seriously...im not joking. But, I will be hanging out with my family. I told you all before, that during this summer, will mark two years of me not seeing them..but, I was wrong..it will be 3 years that I havent seen all my extended family. Which is a long time...
While we are there..we will have our annual 'Family Camp', thats when the whole family gets together..it seems like there is 60-70 of us if everyone comes, and we spend a week camping. They started this tradition the year Pete and I were born![my cousin:] So this is the 20th year! :) wow..I just realized that! :D We all pretty much live in the same area..so we see each other all the time...but its exciting to just spend a week all together! :)

6) NTBI...is coming soon! Awhh..its been like a rollercoaster for me this past year..at times I have been so excited to go...and at other times..I dont really want to go. I am really looking forward to the classes..but I just know so many people up there..in a way that will make it easier..but there are so many awkward relationships, people I used to be friends with, people I know but dont really talk to, and family friends that have known me since I was lil. Its just going to be weird..I would rather move some place completely knew..and have a brand new slate and know no one. But i'm pretty sure this is where God wants me to go..so I am excited to see what He has for me up there! :)

Guess thats all the news for now :)

ohh p.s..work is going great today..but maybe it cause everyone that pretty much answers the questions are out today or are in meetings the whole time..so everyone that calls or comes in, I just have to get their name and number and give the person the message..haha! Pretty easy! And I have enjoyed talking and laughing with Nancy today..an older lady who is a snowbird[one that comes down to the headquarters to help out during the winter..for those of you who dont know] She is so great! She has so many stories to tell and has had so much experience on life! And her and a bunch of her friends were going to go to chick-fil-a to each lunch, after she finished working and she was disappointed when she found out I wasnt working there today! :)

I Have Survived the First Week...

Well, as some of you know..I got a second job. I'm working in the Tax and Retirement Office at New Tribes Mission. Mr. Snyder hired me as the secretary! :) I take all the calls, and transfer them to the correct person who can answer the question, set up appointments, email and give messages to the right people, and deal with walk-ins, scan the data sheets when Nancy isn't here, and put together and staple forms, open the mail..separate it..then give it to the person its meant for. Oh, and I make the coffee in the morning! :)
At first, before the job even began..I was pretty excited. "Wow!" I thought,"This job is going to be a nice and slow one..I will be able to just sit and relax. It will be completely different then Chick-fil-a."
Then..on my very first day, after the first 15 minutes on the job..I got like, 5-6 walk-ins, several phone calls and a bunch of mail to open. After that..I had completely different feelings towards the job! :)
People were bringing in these forms and papers and using all these tax words that I know nothing about. Honestly, I am clueless in this area. Taxes...eww.
Now, its been exactly one week since I've started! Today is my 5th day!
Everything is going pretty good today!
*The phone calls have all been a success! [which means I haven't transferred any calls to the wrong person:]
*My cup of coffee is sitting next to me and it tastes delicious![somehow I put in the perfect amount of sugar and creamer..we'll just see if I can do it again next time;]
*There wasn't tooo much mail today! [and I gave it all to the correct people:]
*Seeing its not very busy, and there is nothing to do or catch up on...I will probably write a lot of random posts..don't say I didn't warn you! :) [thanks Matt for the idea of keeping up with my blog at work:]
*For my break, I just have to walk up a flight of stairs, and ill be home...haha...I just did that to get a water bottle..cause the coffee wasn't satisfying my thirst! :)
Well, that's all for now! not sure how long ill be here today..maybe till 4..4:30..5. We'll see how busy we are.
I'm enjoying this slow pace job more and more...and it gives me plenty of time to think and collect my thoughts! :)

Such a fake.

The door flings open, as I walk in, my boss says, "Hey Megan! How are you?"


"Good." I reply, "How are you?"


"Good, Thanks!"



Every single day I walk into work...and that is whats said. Its starting to get so fake..and routine...its been bugging me.

Can we not be comfortable to share how we are really doing and what we are going through? Guess not. Theres no time. When we trained for the job..one of the main things they tell us is.."Leave your problems at home when you come to work..we want our employees to have big smiles on their faces and be inviting.." Sigh..guess thats how its going to be. It jus so annoying.

p.s..this is something I wrote forever ago..and didnt end up posting it. so thought.."hey..why not." ahaha! :)

Mexico.

I haven't looked at that word the same since two summers ago. Now, whenever I hear or read that word, I am reminded of the crazy adventures, all God taught me, the amazing memories made, my future..maybe not in mexico..but somewhere probably overseas, and all the friendships made there. Sigh.

I just watched the last mexico video. Only one lil lonely tear made it down my cheek...but at least there was one...seeing there hard to come by! You see..the reason for the tear..is cause inside..im struggling to accept the fact..that I probably wont go to mexico this summer. My heart is breaking. At first, I was sure it was Gods will for me to go...but as time goes on..I think im starting to realize that I am the one that really badly wants to go..and God doesn't.

My family is going to the northwest for the summer. which by that time..I will not have seen all my family in 2 years. If I did go, I would have to fly from Washington to el paso, and meet up with the group[yeah, I had it all figured out], then, after the trip, I would have to fly from el paso back to Washington, then straight to Wisconsin. A couple days after that, I would have to start training to become a bus driver..then a bit after that..I would start college. I thought the transition back was really hard that last two times...if I had to immediately move away from my friends and family and start college..it would be tough..that's a hard transition on its own. Sigh.

Josh might not even be considering to ask me to go back..I have no clue..but I haven't heard anything from him yet..I know he has been praying about it! and hey..I've already gone twice for goodness sake.

So, pretty much..its probably a no go for me...but..its not to late...if God really wants me to go...He will make it happen....

I jus needed to cry...

Wow...what a day....sigh...so, this morning, I was dealing with something..that has been emotionally stressful for me..and there has been things going on..that I've been holding in...
So..as I was dealing with this...I was completely zoned out...I honestly dont know where the time went..cause the last time I looked at the clock..I had 20 minutes till work...and I had to be there at 11:30 So, all of the sudden, I look up at the clock..and I thought..ohh my..I better get my uniform on I jus have a couple more minutes till I should be heading out. As I went to my bedroom..I looked at my clock..11:30. I looked at the time again..then thought.."No..that has to be wrong." So, I looked at another clock...nope...it was right...I was suppose to be at work and clocked in at that very moment. How could of this happened..where did the time go?! So I raced and got my uniform on...then, I couldn't find my keys. I called my dad, and he said if I could find moms, I could jus use those. I ran downstairs....started the car as I called chick-fil-a...one of the girls there answered, I told her I would be there as fast as I can and apologized. Thats when..I jus started crying...all the way to work....as I walked through the door...25 minutes late..Melanie[the boss] said,"Megan, its really ok...dont worry about it." I walked by her and said,"No, its not..im so sorry." I started crying again as I walked up the stairs to put my purse in one of the lockers. She came up behind me and said,"Really Megan, some people are late and jus call in and say they are going to be late..and dont even feel bad..I can tell you feel really bad..and so dont worry about it at all. Take your time...and come down when you are ready ok!"
So, I tried to reapply my makeup, [cause if I jus shed a tear..it lookes like I cried for hours] and went down to get a drink. As I came back, Lee started making a joke about me being late..I said while trying to hold back the tears,"ohh Lee..dont even go there..." and I looked at him as I walked past. He said,"wait..whoa..." I turned around,"Megan..are you ok...your crying." He gave me a hug...and said,"Megan, your alright..you dont have to worry about it. Why are you crying?" I jus said cause I am late..but, I dont think normally..I would of cried..but..that was the last straw...I reached the top of the bottle..and jus let it out. I really needed to cry..cause its been awhile. I sorta wished I was at a place I could of jus cried it out...cause I never cry..and it feels good to get it out..ya know. He hugged me again trying to convince me it was ok. I went out, and Carlton[the older guy there..he is about in his upper 60 I think] said,"Megan, are you ok?" I replied,"no." He said,"I told them....I told them, Megan isn't here yet..if she is late..something must be wrong..she is never late...I hope everything is alright."
It must of been awkward for the customers..cough..I mean guests for me to take their orders when I have red watery eyes..and on the verge of crying again. :]
I was so mad at myself for being late...all day..so, Lee decided that I needed to talk to a Psychiatrist or whatever after work and he volunteered himself for that spot. So, after work...he sat down...and told me he was a great listener..and I can talk to him whenever....cause he said it wasnt good to hold everything in..and he hates seeing people cry. So we talked awhile. But afterwards...I jus had to thank God for those people I work with and how it worked out. And how fast He had the day go for me. :D
Sigh...it was an interesting day.
I jus wanted to share my story with you...

first timer! :)

So, today..I voted, for the first time! :) I was quite overjoyed with the fact that I was able to vote for a president for my first voting experience! :)
We had to leave early, cause my parents had to work. So, around 6:30..off we went..a couple blocks down the street! There were probably 25-35 people ahead of us! We stood in line for 20 minutes or so until they finally opened the doors. But when we got to the doors...I was very disappointed....sigh...there were no curtain's...I always thought about the first time I would vote for a president..and I would walk into the lil cubical..and slide the curtian to close it. But no...there were no curtians! =[ ohh well..I lived.
So anyway...we were finally able to vote..they gave me the ballot and I was ready. I found myself a lil table thing...and was ready to color in the first oval...but no...the pen didnt work...I dont know how the guy ahead of me did his. So after getting someones attention and finally getting a new pen, I was ready to get to work! :)
As I was working on not making any mistakes..I over heard this lil boy with his parents...he was with his dad and said, "who are you voting for daddy...ohh, for O..." his dad interupted his telling him to be quiet. Then, he decided to go to his mom and said,"Are your voting for McCain?" and the mom told him also to be quiet cause some people like it to be kept a secret, but she didn't care. I finished the same time they did, I was walking behind them and the lil boy was just looking at me the whole way...so I smiled then he said,"your pretty." haha...it was quite interesting. *awkward turtle* :]
As we got the to machine thing that takes your ballot, the guy there[who I knew..cause a lot of people with ntm work there during the elections] said, "This is your first time voting, right?" So I told him yes...then he asked me if I wanted him to announce it to everyone. I said,"uh, well, ummm...." And he yelled out,"First time voter!" I raised my arms as if I won a race..but then everyone started cheering and clapping...so I put my arms down and walked away humiliated! :)
Thats my story..sorry..its quite long...

Theres the place!

So..this one car stopped..and I saw this person getting out..but all i could really see were the Obama signs. I laughed and made a few lil jokes about it..then..when she got out enough..and i could see her face...i was shocked..cause I knew her..hehe..she used to go to the curves down the street, where I used to work!

Also..after I voted...there were people down the street that were jumping up and down holding Obama signs...as we walked pass...I was so tempted to say,"Ohh...to late...I already voted..to bad I didn't see you earlier..cause that would of made me change my vote." hehe..do they seriously think that is going to change someones vote? I am sure..if they are going to vote..they would come ready and prepared..and not coming having no clue who they are going to vote for!

And there is my "I Voted" sticker! :)

Just a thought!

As you know, people have different fears in life...like, heights, bugs, and the list goes on. Well, I was thinking about my fear. The fear of getting in trouble...for example..by parents, teachers, and my boss. :)
I thought long and hard about this...then thought..why am not as worried about that with God. How can I let myself be like that. From music, to movies, internet, or to a 'lil white lie'...why don't I worry about disobeying Him and letting Him down as much as I do with humans? I should. God knows it all and sees everything...I can't hide anything from Him. In every area of my life, I should double check with God first..to see if that is what He wants me to listen to, watch, and do. Instead of having God involved in just a couple parts of my life...why not have Him involved in ALL of it?!
Just something that I have been thinking about a lot.

have to hurry and get ready for youth group...hope there arnt tooo many mistakes and it all makes sense..but I gotta go..:]...

Its a Mystery?!

So, a couple weeks ago...I was at awana..and I had to make a few copies. So I went into the break room and started the first page. I had to talk to Josh, so I went over to his office. I was there longer then expected, and had to hurry back to my lil cubbies. When I got back to the break room...I saw that some how...the second sheet was copied...the exact amount I needed. I was sorta freakin out...cause I did the first page...and when I came back..the second one was done. So I shared the news with Josh, Matt, and Stephen. hehe! I never saw anyone go into the breakroom while I was in Josh's office.
I was told to blog this! hehe!
But..if you are the one who did this...or you know who did it...feel free to tell me! hehe!

Love Notes! =]

Well, I think this blog...is going to start being all about good news....or love notes from God! =] Hehe, cause God gives me so many each day...I just can't help but share at least one a day!! ;)
Hope you don't mind! :]
So....on Thursday, I got off work, and was just about to eat my chicken noodle soup while I waited for my parents to pick me up...cause they needed the car that day. So, my mom rushed in....and said..."we have to go..don't you remember...we have to pick up brittany at 5?" So, I hurried and ate my soup....but didn't get to use the saltine crackers, so I just put them in my purse.
All that to say, last night, my dad came out of his bedroom around midnight feeling quite sick to his stomach. See...I am sleeping in the living room cause my grandparents are taking my room and I was still awake. I saw him looking throughout the kitchen, then he said,"ohh....I thought we had saltine crackers...I guess we don't. And we used the last can of the sprite today too didn't we?" With that said...he was just going to come watch some tv....cause that was all he felt for. But then...God reminded me..."Megan, you have some crackers leftover from yesterday..remember?" So, I searched through my purse...thinking they would of gotten squished and would just be crumbs....cause I had my bible and journal in there too. But they weren't! So....he was able to eat those! God new he was going to need those crackers....so He made sure I didn't use them on my soup....=]
But today....we went to the store...and got him a full box of them! =]

some good news! =)

This last Saturday, I saw my schedule for this week. I noticed that I worked from Monday to Thursday, and then got Friday and Saturday off. I was so confused..they never give me the weekend off. It was so unlike them. I didn't understand. But, as much as I don't mind working weekends..cause pretty much everyone works cause its so busy....it makes it alot of fun.....but I wasn't going to complain.
Well...Wednesday...I got sick..then...thursday...I got worse...but I still had to go to work...then as I was lying there so sick Thursday evening, I realized I had the whole weekend to rest up and get better! God knew that's exactly what I needed! And even tho I didn't understand why my schedule was like that at the beginning of the week...it now makes perfect sense! :)

Im not quite sure...

Well, I am ready for work early.

And really wanted to post something...but I have to idea what i'd like to write...I just can't think of anything.

any ideas?!

I guess I'll just write whats been going on...

it will be quick...I don't have that much time...=]

...my Grandparents arrived on thur...which was really exciting! They are here till the 22nd...or around then. I haven't seen them in over a year...so its really nice to spend this much needed time with them!

The day after they arrived...we headed to the ntm beach retreat. That was a lot of fun. We were able to just relax...walk on the beach...and enjoy God's beautiful creation! I could sit forever just listening to the ocean--just God and me! We had some good talks! :)

This Sunday...was brits birthday! So, we made our way back home. She wanted chinese [is that how you spell it..it looks funny:] food....so we ate...opened presents...played clue...then ate cake and icecream! =]

Monday....I won't explain it all...but I managed to spill hot boiling water all over my wrist...so its red and puffy! Lee told me to put mustard on it...I thought he was just kidding...then...my boss said the same thing...so I tried it. Sigh...all it did was take the red away...so you can barely see it...but it still hurts the same. I am never doing that again...if its going to hurt like it does....its going to show. haha. or else...people think that I am making it all up....=]
Went to youth group....as tired as I was....I was excited about breakout groups...cause most of the girls were there
...but guess what...we had a guest speaker..who did a great job...but we then weren't able to have break out groups! =/
...next week!

Today...I have work. =]<--I guess work deserves a smiley...hehe...it just depends whos working that makes the day either wonderfully amazing and makes me love my job....or completely annoying and awful and makes me want to quit right then and there. =]

Oh, tomorrows Cubbies! I have to call Mrs. Holmgren....we are doing cubbies together...well...she is doing most of the work...which I feel bad...I will have to ask her is she wants to me to take more things!

ok...I am going to go.......work awaits me!

My grandpa is taking me to work today...cause they need the car...it should be fun! =]

i'll write more later...

Yup, i'm writing again! =]

"Whoa"..yah, thats probably what your thinking....two posts...in only two days!! yah, I know! =]
I just wanted to say this, so today, I had to open at work! I had to leave at 7:30. So, I set my alarm for 5:50. It went off.....but I was still way to tired because I got home real late last night. So I set the alarm for 10 minutes....I was looking forward to sleeping a little more. But, I never woke up to the alarm, I was deep in sleep in the middle of a dream, when suddenly...I just flew out of bed looked at the clock realizing that I had slept in....it said 7:25! It was completely God. Why else would I randomly, out of the blue, while I am deep in sleep....just...wake up...with 5 minutes to spare?! Even though I was freaking out because I only had 5 minutes.....all I could do was thank God! =] It was a good way to start my day! Isn't He just amazing?! :]

Why?!

[So jenna wanted me to post more...so here goes;]
This past month, I have been questioning God alot. Like,"Why did the Caley's have to move to England...for forever? They have a home here, friends, a life." "Why can't I be living in papua new guinea? Thats the place I love, its my home, its where I long to be." Why this and why that. So basically, "why can't things just be my way?" But if it were that way, who knows where I would be. But, I have to remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11,"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you." God has everything under control, so I should just leave it all up to Him with no questions asked. But I am still tempted to ask Him 'why' and question His wonderful plan, which usually doesn't always seem so wonderful at that time. I mean, who am I to question the Creator of the universe, the One who tells the spring to turn to summer, the One who tells the sun when to set and the stars when to shine, the One who is keeping me alive, the One who loves me no matter what I do, the One who sticks by my side even when i've turned my back from Him. Yah, I do stupid things.....but He still loves me...no matter what! And having God take on the responsibility of all my worries...takes a huge burden off me! All I really have to do....is trust that God has everything under control....and not ask Him 'Why'!! Even when I am unsure about things....God knows all about it.
I am reading a book called "The Grand Weaver." In the book, Ravi Zacharias tells a story about a weaver who creates these beautiful garments called a 'sari' for brides to wear on their wedding day. They have a variety of spectacular colors that are woven into such beautiful patterns. As they start making them, you can't quite tell how its going to turn out, but the weaver does. Just like God, The Grand Weaver, He has a design in mind for us, even though we can't quite see how it will turn out. But through all the disappointments in our lives-both the threads He brings in and the ones He leaves out, the snagged stitches and the "flaws" that show up at all the "wrong times" starts to reveal a beautiful masterpiece. It is interesting to look back on things that seemed to be the end of the world and you weren't sure how it would turn out.....and how God worked it all out and had it all under control. Just like when the weaver is creating the garment you might say, 'oh, I wonder why he used that color there.' which you thought was going to be a mistake and ruin it, but ended up becoming part of the beautiful pattern which he had in mind from the start!
Well, thats just what I have been thinking about lately!
ok, I am not quite sure if this all fits together and makes sense....sorry. why do i always seem to write posts when i am sleepy and its late?! ;]