Yup, i'm writing again! =]

"Whoa"..yah, thats probably what your thinking....two posts...in only two days!! yah, I know! =]
I just wanted to say this, so today, I had to open at work! I had to leave at 7:30. So, I set my alarm for 5:50. It went off.....but I was still way to tired because I got home real late last night. So I set the alarm for 10 minutes....I was looking forward to sleeping a little more. But, I never woke up to the alarm, I was deep in sleep in the middle of a dream, when suddenly...I just flew out of bed looked at the clock realizing that I had slept in....it said 7:25! It was completely God. Why else would I randomly, out of the blue, while I am deep in sleep....just...wake up...with 5 minutes to spare?! Even though I was freaking out because I only had 5 minutes.....all I could do was thank God! =] It was a good way to start my day! Isn't He just amazing?! :]

Why?!

[So jenna wanted me to post more...so here goes;]
This past month, I have been questioning God alot. Like,"Why did the Caley's have to move to England...for forever? They have a home here, friends, a life." "Why can't I be living in papua new guinea? Thats the place I love, its my home, its where I long to be." Why this and why that. So basically, "why can't things just be my way?" But if it were that way, who knows where I would be. But, I have to remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11,"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you." God has everything under control, so I should just leave it all up to Him with no questions asked. But I am still tempted to ask Him 'why' and question His wonderful plan, which usually doesn't always seem so wonderful at that time. I mean, who am I to question the Creator of the universe, the One who tells the spring to turn to summer, the One who tells the sun when to set and the stars when to shine, the One who is keeping me alive, the One who loves me no matter what I do, the One who sticks by my side even when i've turned my back from Him. Yah, I do stupid things.....but He still loves me...no matter what! And having God take on the responsibility of all my worries...takes a huge burden off me! All I really have to do....is trust that God has everything under control....and not ask Him 'Why'!! Even when I am unsure about things....God knows all about it.
I am reading a book called "The Grand Weaver." In the book, Ravi Zacharias tells a story about a weaver who creates these beautiful garments called a 'sari' for brides to wear on their wedding day. They have a variety of spectacular colors that are woven into such beautiful patterns. As they start making them, you can't quite tell how its going to turn out, but the weaver does. Just like God, The Grand Weaver, He has a design in mind for us, even though we can't quite see how it will turn out. But through all the disappointments in our lives-both the threads He brings in and the ones He leaves out, the snagged stitches and the "flaws" that show up at all the "wrong times" starts to reveal a beautiful masterpiece. It is interesting to look back on things that seemed to be the end of the world and you weren't sure how it would turn out.....and how God worked it all out and had it all under control. Just like when the weaver is creating the garment you might say, 'oh, I wonder why he used that color there.' which you thought was going to be a mistake and ruin it, but ended up becoming part of the beautiful pattern which he had in mind from the start!
Well, thats just what I have been thinking about lately!
ok, I am not quite sure if this all fits together and makes sense....sorry. why do i always seem to write posts when i am sleepy and its late?! ;]