I jus needed to cry...

Wow...what a day....sigh...so, this morning, I was dealing with something..that has been emotionally stressful for me..and there has been things going on..that I've been holding in...
So..as I was dealing with this...I was completely zoned out...I honestly dont know where the time went..cause the last time I looked at the clock..I had 20 minutes till work...and I had to be there at 11:30 So, all of the sudden, I look up at the clock..and I thought..ohh my..I better get my uniform on I jus have a couple more minutes till I should be heading out. As I went to my bedroom..I looked at my clock..11:30. I looked at the time again..then thought.."No..that has to be wrong." So, I looked at another clock...nope...it was right...I was suppose to be at work and clocked in at that very moment. How could of this happened..where did the time go?! So I raced and got my uniform on...then, I couldn't find my keys. I called my dad, and he said if I could find moms, I could jus use those. I ran downstairs....started the car as I called chick-fil-a...one of the girls there answered, I told her I would be there as fast as I can and apologized. Thats when..I jus started crying...all the way to work....as I walked through the door...25 minutes late..Melanie[the boss] said,"Megan, its really ok...dont worry about it." I walked by her and said,"No, its not..im so sorry." I started crying again as I walked up the stairs to put my purse in one of the lockers. She came up behind me and said,"Really Megan, some people are late and jus call in and say they are going to be late..and dont even feel bad..I can tell you feel really bad..and so dont worry about it at all. Take your time...and come down when you are ready ok!"
So, I tried to reapply my makeup, [cause if I jus shed a tear..it lookes like I cried for hours] and went down to get a drink. As I came back, Lee started making a joke about me being late..I said while trying to hold back the tears,"ohh Lee..dont even go there..." and I looked at him as I walked past. He said,"wait..whoa..." I turned around,"Megan..are you ok...your crying." He gave me a hug...and said,"Megan, your alright..you dont have to worry about it. Why are you crying?" I jus said cause I am late..but, I dont think normally..I would of cried..but..that was the last straw...I reached the top of the bottle..and jus let it out. I really needed to cry..cause its been awhile. I sorta wished I was at a place I could of jus cried it out...cause I never cry..and it feels good to get it out..ya know. He hugged me again trying to convince me it was ok. I went out, and Carlton[the older guy there..he is about in his upper 60 I think] said,"Megan, are you ok?" I replied,"no." He said,"I told them....I told them, Megan isn't here yet..if she is late..something must be wrong..she is never late...I hope everything is alright."
It must of been awkward for the customers..cough..I mean guests for me to take their orders when I have red watery eyes..and on the verge of crying again. :]
I was so mad at myself for being late...all day..so, Lee decided that I needed to talk to a Psychiatrist or whatever after work and he volunteered himself for that spot. So, after work...he sat down...and told me he was a great listener..and I can talk to him whenever....cause he said it wasnt good to hold everything in..and he hates seeing people cry. So we talked awhile. But afterwards...I jus had to thank God for those people I work with and how it worked out. And how fast He had the day go for me. :D
Sigh...it was an interesting day.
I jus wanted to share my story with you...