Scared to Death..

Where do I even start...
So yesterday morning..Jaylea was, for the most part, acting normal, she went most of the night, not wanting to eat..and that morning, was the same. She was sleepier then normal. She slept all the way through church..without a peep. On the way home, my mom tried to feed her with a bottle, she would drink some, but then let it all run out of her mouth down her chin and neck. If she did swallow some..she would just spit it all up. This was not the Jaylea we know. She is a good eater. As we got home..she didn't want to eat again. She missed several feeding times. By this time, she didn't even want to wake up..she might of opened her eyes for a lil bit..but then..she would fall back to sleep. Amber was getting worried. At one point, Jaylea rolled her eyes to the back of her head. DJ assured her she would be alright. So Amber decided to lay down..she later fell asleep. We were going to go out to eat for Easter...but decided to wait, to see if we could get her to eat.
DJ sat on the couch, with Jaylea sprawled across his lap. She never would sleep like that, maybe the first day or two of her life..but not now..at three weeks. You could put her in any uncomfortable position, and she would just lie there..completely out of it. I went and sat next to DJ..as I held her lil hand, she usually, even when asleep, would grab onto my finger tight..and not let go..even if I would try and pull away, but this time, as I held her hand..she didn't hold my hand back..her lil hand would just plop back to her side if I let go. As I sat there..watching my lifeless lil girl..all I could do was pray..something was wrong..and we didn't know what it was. She wasn't being responsive, she wouldn't even cry, she was limp, lethargic, she didn't want to eat, all she wanted to do was sleep, and we couldn't really wake her up and keep her up. Some of us took a nap..or just sat and waited...
I woke up to DJ on the phone with Jaylea's doctor..I heard,"So that's not normal right? You want us to go to the Children's Hospital? Ok, thanks." We all got ready to go to. I new something was definitely wrong when he came out with Jaylea in her car seat..still sound asleep..cause she hates getting in that thing..she usually crys when they try and get her in there..even if she was sleeping.
As I heard my sister, bawling while getting all Jaylea's things together..I had to fight back the tears. It was one of the scariest things that I've gone through. I have grown so attached to my lil girl..I love her with all my heart..now..my heart was breaking..I'd do anything to help her..to make her well and herself again..I didn't know what the doctors would say..but tried not to think the worst.
We made our way to the Hospital..it seemed like eternity..I wanted to get my lil baby there. She sat there sleeping..quiet, the whole trip which isn't her..she usually would lay there eyes wide open just looking at her surroundings..worry and tears were just building up...ready to burst.
Finally, we made our way to the emergency room. Oh my goodness..I have never seen the nurses move so slow..guess it doesn't go as fast as the movies show. As we got settled down, waiting for her name to be called..we all took turns going to the single bathroom. I sat there..fighting back the tears..waiting for my turn..I happened to be the last one in line. The minute I opened the door to the bathroom, I just burst into tears..crying my heart out. I was scared to death..praying she would be alright. Just wondering what was wrong with my precious baby, and hoping it would not be serious. I hurried up..and applied more makeup and made my way back out.
A bit later..Jaylea started crying..which I know at least relieved me a lil. Amber tried feeding her again, right when the nurse called her name. They made their way to one of the rooms, a bit later, DJ called all us back there..and we sat in the lil hospital room, waiting for the doctor.
They asked a bunch of questions..and by this time, Jaylea was wide awake..so the doctor couldn't see how she had been acting all day long. One of the reason she was wide awake..was probably cause they had to take her temp though her lil bottom..and she started crying..so..that woke her up a lil. But we still don't know why she seemed almost normal in front of the doctor..we just sat there confused..but amazed. The doctors ended up just sending us home after a few lil tests and such. But did set her appointment with Jaylea's doctor for today..instead of Wed.
We are still worried..cause it didn't seem like the doctors understood how she was throughout the whole day..but we are hoping some of the questions will be answered today at her checkup..and she will not go through that again. She is starting to eat a bit more..and once we got home and Amber fed her..she didn't spit up once. :)
Could you please be praying she continues to eat more and keep it all down and will gain more energy as time goes on..ohh, and that she gains more weight..she still weighs about 6 pounds..and today marked her three week and one day birthday! :)
Sigh..yesterday was such a long emotional day..but glad she is doing better!
I love you guys! See you soon!

p.s..we are heading out today..not sure what time..but will be there tomorrow!

Dont get stuck..

..yep..that's right...
You see..ok, well, this might sound weird..and I dont know how this will turn out..its late..I'm feeling sick..and I need to go to bed..but, I just wanted to share something I've been thinking about..
Since I got up to Wisconsin..I've been realizing how I was stuck in this weekly routine..I was so involved and had my mind wrapped around everything going on..that is if I wasn't on robot mode...I worked everyday 8 or 9 to around 5 with both jobs(except sundays:)..and in the evenings, I either had one of two youth groups, awana, and good news sessions:)..but had a few evenings to catch up on some things..weeks just flew by..which turned into months..
I got to the point, where I didnt really want to go to NTBI anymore, cause so much was going on there, I was just plain comfortable. I know, one of my favorite sayings is,"Nothing great comes from being comfortable." And that's where I was, comfortable in my own lil town, and my own lil circle of friends...in a lil bubble. But, then, when I got up here, I woke up and realized how much more God has for me outside of my lil bubble. As I have mentioned before about how there are awkward relationships and how I'd rather go someplace new and have a clean slate..well, I have different thoughts on that now. That may sound better..that is my plan and how I would want it to turn out, and not Gods. And now, I am really excited to move up here and go to school mostly from talking to Kristyna and Kelly(DJ's sisters..it seems like I have known them forever..just its just been a couple years!) about school, the classes, and how great the teachers are..hehe!
I am going to miss everyone so much..sigh..its gonna be real, real tough..but I am really excited about moving up here now..its where God wants me to be..and'm excited to see what God has in store for me up here.
Another thing...I am officially accepted into NTBI Waukesha..the only thing that they were waiting for was a picture and my physical form(which I had both done..but just needed to send them in)..once I got here..and realized how much I wanted to go..and saw that this is what God has for me the next couple years..so I sent those things off..and they emailed me back right away and told me I was accepted and was going to get some things in the mail..how exciting! :)
Man..there were a few more things I wanted to add..thats what I get for doing it so late..I forget..or is that cause of my old age?! ;)
Now..all this happened pretty much before I heard the news that possibly..if all goes well...Maddie...remember her..she came to visit..and I said how I wasn't going to see her for two more years..well, she is coming to the states in a couple months..but anyway..like I was saying, if it all works out..she is planning on going to NTBI in Waukesha...this Fall believe it or not. This past year, we'd talk about colleges, and she wasnt sure..our original plan...when I was in like, 7th grade, we planned to go together. But, then, she wanted to go to a different college and just wasnt sure if she wanted to go to NTBI right off the bat..which was perfectly fine...and I accepted it and figured she wasnt going to go the same year. Then, a couple nights ago..I caught her online, and one of the first things she said to me was.."I just finished my application to NTBI." I was overjoyed! I mean, there is still a possibility that she might not go...but I'm praying she will be able to!!
Wow..ok..I need to go to bed..
..I'll see you all soon..very soon...two more days here...one full..21hours(if all goes well) drive back..and I'll see you guys again!
Tomorrow we are meeting up with Uncle Karl and Aunt Maribeth..friends from PNG..and from the NTM training..I've known them since 3rd grade..so that will be a lot of fun!
well, goodnight my dear friends..I love you! :)

It doesnt get any better then this...

..i was told to put pictures of Jaylea and me..:) so this afternoon..we had some fun with the camera! :]

..more to come..hmm..i just realized..that they all pretty much look the same..ohh well!!

Coming Soon...
Jaylea Karyn's First Visit to the Bowling Ally!

..Be Excited..
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Lil Jaylea Karyn! :)

Just feelin her guns! this ones for Jenna! (i love you..and miss you like crazy! call me ok! dont make me call you:)

Grandpa time!
these next three pictures..were all her..she put her hands like that..hehe..

hear no evil

speak no evil

see no evil

she didnt really like her first bath

More to come..i promise..dont say I didnt warn you! :)