I jus needed to cry...

Wow...what a day....sigh...so, this morning, I was dealing with something..that has been emotionally stressful for me..and there has been things going on..that I've been holding in...
So..as I was dealing with this...I was completely zoned out...I honestly dont know where the time went..cause the last time I looked at the clock..I had 20 minutes till work...and I had to be there at 11:30 So, all of the sudden, I look up at the clock..and I thought..ohh my..I better get my uniform on I jus have a couple more minutes till I should be heading out. As I went to my bedroom..I looked at my clock..11:30. I looked at the time again..then thought.."No..that has to be wrong." So, I looked at another clock...nope...it was right...I was suppose to be at work and clocked in at that very moment. How could of this happened..where did the time go?! So I raced and got my uniform on...then, I couldn't find my keys. I called my dad, and he said if I could find moms, I could jus use those. I ran downstairs....started the car as I called chick-fil-a...one of the girls there answered, I told her I would be there as fast as I can and apologized. Thats when..I jus started crying...all the way to work....as I walked through the door...25 minutes late..Melanie[the boss] said,"Megan, its really ok...dont worry about it." I walked by her and said,"No, its not..im so sorry." I started crying again as I walked up the stairs to put my purse in one of the lockers. She came up behind me and said,"Really Megan, some people are late and jus call in and say they are going to be late..and dont even feel bad..I can tell you feel really bad..and so dont worry about it at all. Take your time...and come down when you are ready ok!"
So, I tried to reapply my makeup, [cause if I jus shed a tear..it lookes like I cried for hours] and went down to get a drink. As I came back, Lee started making a joke about me being late..I said while trying to hold back the tears,"ohh Lee..dont even go there..." and I looked at him as I walked past. He said,"wait..whoa..." I turned around,"Megan..are you ok...your crying." He gave me a hug...and said,"Megan, your alright..you dont have to worry about it. Why are you crying?" I jus said cause I am late..but, I dont think normally..I would of cried..but..that was the last straw...I reached the top of the bottle..and jus let it out. I really needed to cry..cause its been awhile. I sorta wished I was at a place I could of jus cried it out...cause I never cry..and it feels good to get it out..ya know. He hugged me again trying to convince me it was ok. I went out, and Carlton[the older guy there..he is about in his upper 60 I think] said,"Megan, are you ok?" I replied,"no." He said,"I told them....I told them, Megan isn't here yet..if she is late..something must be wrong..she is never late...I hope everything is alright."
It must of been awkward for the customers..cough..I mean guests for me to take their orders when I have red watery eyes..and on the verge of crying again. :]
I was so mad at myself for being late...all day..so, Lee decided that I needed to talk to a Psychiatrist or whatever after work and he volunteered himself for that spot. So, after work...he sat down...and told me he was a great listener..and I can talk to him whenever....cause he said it wasnt good to hold everything in..and he hates seeing people cry. So we talked awhile. But afterwards...I jus had to thank God for those people I work with and how it worked out. And how fast He had the day go for me. :D
Sigh...it was an interesting day.
I jus wanted to share my story with you...

first timer! :)

So, today..I voted, for the first time! :) I was quite overjoyed with the fact that I was able to vote for a president for my first voting experience! :)
We had to leave early, cause my parents had to work. So, around 6:30..off we went..a couple blocks down the street! There were probably 25-35 people ahead of us! We stood in line for 20 minutes or so until they finally opened the doors. But when we got to the doors...I was very disappointed....sigh...there were no curtain's...I always thought about the first time I would vote for a president..and I would walk into the lil cubical..and slide the curtian to close it. But no...there were no curtians! =[ ohh well..I lived.
So anyway...we were finally able to vote..they gave me the ballot and I was ready. I found myself a lil table thing...and was ready to color in the first oval...but no...the pen didnt work...I dont know how the guy ahead of me did his. So after getting someones attention and finally getting a new pen, I was ready to get to work! :)
As I was working on not making any mistakes..I over heard this lil boy with his parents...he was with his dad and said, "who are you voting for daddy...ohh, for O..." his dad interupted his telling him to be quiet. Then, he decided to go to his mom and said,"Are your voting for McCain?" and the mom told him also to be quiet cause some people like it to be kept a secret, but she didn't care. I finished the same time they did, I was walking behind them and the lil boy was just looking at me the whole way...so I smiled then he said,"your pretty." haha...it was quite interesting. *awkward turtle* :]
As we got the to machine thing that takes your ballot, the guy there[who I knew..cause a lot of people with ntm work there during the elections] said, "This is your first time voting, right?" So I told him yes...then he asked me if I wanted him to announce it to everyone. I said,"uh, well, ummm...." And he yelled out,"First time voter!" I raised my arms as if I won a race..but then everyone started cheering and clapping...so I put my arms down and walked away humiliated! :)
Thats my story..sorry..its quite long...

Theres the place!

So..this one car stopped..and I saw this person getting out..but all i could really see were the Obama signs. I laughed and made a few lil jokes about it..then..when she got out enough..and i could see her face...i was shocked..cause I knew her..hehe..she used to go to the curves down the street, where I used to work!

Also..after I voted...there were people down the street that were jumping up and down holding Obama signs...as we walked pass...I was so tempted to say,"Ohh...to late...I already voted..to bad I didn't see you earlier..cause that would of made me change my vote." hehe..do they seriously think that is going to change someones vote? I am sure..if they are going to vote..they would come ready and prepared..and not coming having no clue who they are going to vote for!

And there is my "I Voted" sticker! :)

Just a thought!

As you know, people have different fears in life...like, heights, bugs, and the list goes on. Well, I was thinking about my fear. The fear of getting in trouble...for example..by parents, teachers, and my boss. :)
I thought long and hard about this...then thought..why am not as worried about that with God. How can I let myself be like that. From music, to movies, internet, or to a 'lil white lie'...why don't I worry about disobeying Him and letting Him down as much as I do with humans? I should. God knows it all and sees everything...I can't hide anything from Him. In every area of my life, I should double check with God first..to see if that is what He wants me to listen to, watch, and do. Instead of having God involved in just a couple parts of my life...why not have Him involved in ALL of it?!
Just something that I have been thinking about a lot.

have to hurry and get ready for youth group...hope there arnt tooo many mistakes and it all makes sense..but I gotta go..:]...

Its a Mystery?!

So, a couple weeks ago...I was at awana..and I had to make a few copies. So I went into the break room and started the first page. I had to talk to Josh, so I went over to his office. I was there longer then expected, and had to hurry back to my lil cubbies. When I got back to the break room...I saw that some how...the second sheet was copied...the exact amount I needed. I was sorta freakin out...cause I did the first page...and when I came back..the second one was done. So I shared the news with Josh, Matt, and Stephen. hehe! I never saw anyone go into the breakroom while I was in Josh's office.
I was told to blog this! hehe!
But..if you are the one who did this...or you know who did it...feel free to tell me! hehe!

Love Notes! =]

Well, I think this blog...is going to start being all about good news....or love notes from God! =] Hehe, cause God gives me so many each day...I just can't help but share at least one a day!! ;)
Hope you don't mind! :]
So....on Thursday, I got off work, and was just about to eat my chicken noodle soup while I waited for my parents to pick me up...cause they needed the car that day. So, my mom rushed in....and said..."we have to go..don't you remember...we have to pick up brittany at 5?" So, I hurried and ate my soup....but didn't get to use the saltine crackers, so I just put them in my purse.
All that to say, last night, my dad came out of his bedroom around midnight feeling quite sick to his stomach. See...I am sleeping in the living room cause my grandparents are taking my room and I was still awake. I saw him looking throughout the kitchen, then he said,"ohh....I thought we had saltine crackers...I guess we don't. And we used the last can of the sprite today too didn't we?" With that said...he was just going to come watch some tv....cause that was all he felt for. But then...God reminded me..."Megan, you have some crackers leftover from yesterday..remember?" So, I searched through my purse...thinking they would of gotten squished and would just be crumbs....cause I had my bible and journal in there too. But they weren't! So....he was able to eat those! God new he was going to need those crackers....so He made sure I didn't use them on my soup....=]
But today....we went to the store...and got him a full box of them! =]

some good news! =)

This last Saturday, I saw my schedule for this week. I noticed that I worked from Monday to Thursday, and then got Friday and Saturday off. I was so confused..they never give me the weekend off. It was so unlike them. I didn't understand. But, as much as I don't mind working weekends..cause pretty much everyone works cause its so busy....it makes it alot of fun.....but I wasn't going to complain.
Well...Wednesday...I got sick..then...thursday...I got worse...but I still had to go to work...then as I was lying there so sick Thursday evening, I realized I had the whole weekend to rest up and get better! God knew that's exactly what I needed! And even tho I didn't understand why my schedule was like that at the beginning of the week...it now makes perfect sense! :)

Im not quite sure...

Well, I am ready for work early.

And really wanted to post something...but I have to idea what i'd like to write...I just can't think of anything.

any ideas?!

I guess I'll just write whats been going on...

it will be quick...I don't have that much time...=]

...my Grandparents arrived on thur...which was really exciting! They are here till the 22nd...or around then. I haven't seen them in over a year...so its really nice to spend this much needed time with them!

The day after they arrived...we headed to the ntm beach retreat. That was a lot of fun. We were able to just relax...walk on the beach...and enjoy God's beautiful creation! I could sit forever just listening to the ocean--just God and me! We had some good talks! :)

This Sunday...was brits birthday! So, we made our way back home. She wanted chinese [is that how you spell it..it looks funny:] food....so we ate...opened presents...played clue...then ate cake and icecream! =]

Monday....I won't explain it all...but I managed to spill hot boiling water all over my wrist...so its red and puffy! Lee told me to put mustard on it...I thought he was just kidding...then...my boss said the same thing...so I tried it. Sigh...all it did was take the red away...so you can barely see it...but it still hurts the same. I am never doing that again...if its going to hurt like it does....its going to show. haha. or else...people think that I am making it all up....=]
Went to youth group....as tired as I was....I was excited about breakout groups...cause most of the girls were there
...but guess what...we had a guest speaker..who did a great job...but we then weren't able to have break out groups! =/
...next week!

Today...I have work. =]<--I guess work deserves a smiley...hehe...it just depends whos working that makes the day either wonderfully amazing and makes me love my job....or completely annoying and awful and makes me want to quit right then and there. =]

Oh, tomorrows Cubbies! I have to call Mrs. Holmgren....we are doing cubbies together...well...she is doing most of the work...which I feel bad...I will have to ask her is she wants to me to take more things!

ok...I am going to go.......work awaits me!

My grandpa is taking me to work today...cause they need the car...it should be fun! =]

i'll write more later...

Yup, i'm writing again! =]

"Whoa"..yah, thats probably what your thinking....two posts...in only two days!! yah, I know! =]
I just wanted to say this, so today, I had to open at work! I had to leave at 7:30. So, I set my alarm for 5:50. It went off.....but I was still way to tired because I got home real late last night. So I set the alarm for 10 minutes....I was looking forward to sleeping a little more. But, I never woke up to the alarm, I was deep in sleep in the middle of a dream, when suddenly...I just flew out of bed looked at the clock realizing that I had slept in....it said 7:25! It was completely God. Why else would I randomly, out of the blue, while I am deep in sleep....just...wake up...with 5 minutes to spare?! Even though I was freaking out because I only had 5 minutes.....all I could do was thank God! =] It was a good way to start my day! Isn't He just amazing?! :]

Why?!

[So jenna wanted me to post more...so here goes;]
This past month, I have been questioning God alot. Like,"Why did the Caley's have to move to England...for forever? They have a home here, friends, a life." "Why can't I be living in papua new guinea? Thats the place I love, its my home, its where I long to be." Why this and why that. So basically, "why can't things just be my way?" But if it were that way, who knows where I would be. But, I have to remind myself of Jeremiah 29:11,"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you." God has everything under control, so I should just leave it all up to Him with no questions asked. But I am still tempted to ask Him 'why' and question His wonderful plan, which usually doesn't always seem so wonderful at that time. I mean, who am I to question the Creator of the universe, the One who tells the spring to turn to summer, the One who tells the sun when to set and the stars when to shine, the One who is keeping me alive, the One who loves me no matter what I do, the One who sticks by my side even when i've turned my back from Him. Yah, I do stupid things.....but He still loves me...no matter what! And having God take on the responsibility of all my worries...takes a huge burden off me! All I really have to do....is trust that God has everything under control....and not ask Him 'Why'!! Even when I am unsure about things....God knows all about it.
I am reading a book called "The Grand Weaver." In the book, Ravi Zacharias tells a story about a weaver who creates these beautiful garments called a 'sari' for brides to wear on their wedding day. They have a variety of spectacular colors that are woven into such beautiful patterns. As they start making them, you can't quite tell how its going to turn out, but the weaver does. Just like God, The Grand Weaver, He has a design in mind for us, even though we can't quite see how it will turn out. But through all the disappointments in our lives-both the threads He brings in and the ones He leaves out, the snagged stitches and the "flaws" that show up at all the "wrong times" starts to reveal a beautiful masterpiece. It is interesting to look back on things that seemed to be the end of the world and you weren't sure how it would turn out.....and how God worked it all out and had it all under control. Just like when the weaver is creating the garment you might say, 'oh, I wonder why he used that color there.' which you thought was going to be a mistake and ruin it, but ended up becoming part of the beautiful pattern which he had in mind from the start!
Well, thats just what I have been thinking about lately!
ok, I am not quite sure if this all fits together and makes sense....sorry. why do i always seem to write posts when i am sleepy and its late?! ;]

Here is it....finally....enjoy!!!



Sigh....I could watch this over and over!! :)

Well, here is the slideshow from mexico!! I can't wait to post the video...its so beautiful! I got to see it at youth group! :] :] :]
This monday is senior goodbye night. I am so sad, I love youth group! But, I will still be going, yup, Jenny and I are going to be break out group leaders! I am excited about it, but really nervous. If you guys could please be praying for us that would be awesome. :] I can't wait to see what God has planned for us this next year at youth group! I am looking forward to all He is going to teach me through this new experience! Like Josh told us at youth group,"Nothing great comes from being comfortable." And this situation is very uncomfortable for me....and I will be stepping out of my comfort zone....but I am excited!!
"Thank you Lord for this opportunity!" :]

The Slideshow!

I have two things to say.......
......Happy Birthday Angie!!! I love you!!!!
and...ohh my word, I am so tired.....my sister came down last night and we didn't get to bed till around two, and so I have 3 and a half hours of sleep, then I had a 7 hour and a half shift, 8-3:30......until the manager came over and said, uh, megan, and you stay till 7?! AHHHhh.....and she wanted me to stay till 7 tomorrow too....but I talked to david and he said he would take that shift for me cause I just couldn't do it, but, yes, I did say yes....I was on the verge of tears.....11 hour shift with 25 minute break total......augh.......8am-7pm.....anyways....I am so tired......so I am just going to go..........
night everyone...love you! :]

I'm back!! hehe! ;]

I am still alive.....

.....I don't have time to write anything really........

............but don't worry.....I will put mexico pictures up....sometime.....I promise!!!!

.........here.....I can't resist.....I have to put a couple up......

the days before the trip are getting even shorter.......

Wow.....is all I can really say! :]
Less then 4 days from today, we will all be sleeping in the little cabins at the KOA campground! ;] Its just so unreal to me that I am going to experience mexico again! I think it will become more real once I am at the airport boarding the plane! ;]
I am doing laundry right now, so then I can just fold them, and stick them into my duffle bag! :] :] :] :] :] I hope I pack less....so then I have more room to bring back stuff!! :] Sigh. I still can't believe it!!! I am super excited......but overwhelmed at the thought of all I have to do before I go! I missed youth group tonight....cause I had to work till 7! So I won't be able to say goodbye to everyone! :[
I'm gonna go! I am so tired.....haha!! And have to put some t-shirts in the dryer!

Also, check this.....its a blog that we are going to be updating with pictures and news while we are in mexico! http://www.thriveyouthmexico.blogspot.com

Some senior pictures for the grandparents and family! ;]

Well, I thought it would be a lot easier for me, my grandparents, and family to look at my senior pictures on my blog, then for me to email all of the pictures to them. Don't worry guys....I will still send you one or two!! hehe! ;] Love ya!

Just a thought......

Well, as most of my friends know...I pretty much have no sense of smell...haha....[yah, it must run in the family....but skipped a generation...cause my parents can smell just fine;]! yah, I can smell, a big sunday dinner cooking, anything with tomato sause and garlic....but thats pretty much it...I can never smell if something is burning, or cookies cooking, or the gross trash can thats smells awful[which most of the time not smelling is a good thing;] but there are so many wonderful smells that I am missing....[don't worry, I am not exactly complaining] haha! but, anyways, all this to say......last night, my mom and I were cooking.....and we were browning hamburger, and she put some garlic in while I was stirring....I said...."oOooOoo...I can smell that!" hehe....then I got to thinking....I wonder if there will be smells in heaven, cause if there are....I will be able to smell all of the beautiful smells there! :]

p.s........47 days--8 hours--3 minutes!!! :) [:well, thats what the count down thing says:]

Camping!

well, we're all back from the camping trip.....safe and sound! :] I have to make this post fast...cause I have loads of school to do! :]
wow....it was amazing!!! At first, I was suppose to do junior church, and wasn't going to make it, but then, after much prayer and calling around....Mr.B decided to cancel junior church this week so Caleb and I could go! :) which I was very excited about!!! So I know God wanted to me to go, even tho it seemed like I wasn't going to be able to!
I loved Josh's Lessons! About finding your real identity! And like, how they were sorta talking about in the skit, people/family/friends having high expectations for your life or giving you false identity's. that is sorta whats happening with me......mainly with some friends. But, like, lately, it seems like their plans for my life, I have to follow! yah I know, it sounds crazy. I just realized how much I listen to them. Pretty sad. But it definitely opened my eyes to see its not my friends choice to tell me if I am going to bible school this year........or to wait. I have heard so many peoples opinions, and I wasn't sure if its just their voice, or Gods! I wrote in my journal this weekend, how it seems like everyones voice is way louder then Gods, and thats all I seem to hear! I know I should try and be following Gods plan/will for my life, but, im getting them all mixed up! hmm, I am not sure if this is making any sense, cause as some of you that went...I've been going on very little sleep this weekend! hehe! But all this to say....even tho I am missing so much that I learnt.....I am so glad God had me go on this trip.......cause I was able to just hand the problem completely over to God and trust Him that whatever His will is....it will be done! If I go to ntbi this year...awesome....if not..its ok...I will just work for the year! and so I was able to have a good time...besides the cold...haha!! Its about time! hehe!!! So, yah.....the camping trip/Josh's lessons helped me a LOT!! :) even tho I seemed to write like...nothing...hehe...I am so out of it....and just talking talking talking....augh...I better go to bed....I will put pictures up later.....as of for now.......night! :]
p.s...thank you all for praying for me!!! :]

Chili Cook Off!

Trent and Hailey! :]

A much as I hate Chili, I was going to try Chikos!

....here goes......

Two thumbs up, and yes chiko....if I had three thumbs....it would be three thumbs up! ;]

So, again this year, we had a chili cookoff! A fundraiser for the mexico trip!!! :] As much as I hate chili, I was excited about it! yah, I know, how can I go to this church and hate chili? Cause it seems to be their favorite! Well, I am not alone, I found out Aleah hates it too! :)

Afterwards we had a Mexico meeting, which I was excited about! During it Jessie reminded Hannah and I about the time my taco went flying in the air while driving back to the Ranch during the storm last year! ;] it made me smile........and laugh!!! :) :] :) :]

Well, yah....I am have a little Mexico money issue. The 1/3 that we are suppose to get by working, which I am getting from Chik-fil-a, will cover it. but that money is suppose to go towards Bible School. And that 1/3 is about 1/6 of the monay I need for college! There really is no other way to earn it, either I am at work or at home doing school. That is why I am missing service projects, prayer meeting, and awana, cause I got a little behind last week cause I worked over 32 hours. I worked every single day, it was pretty insane! So Hannah and I were talking about it, and thought there would be another way to work it out, so i didn't have to use my college money.

But lately, a lot of people are saying and acting like I should wait a year for Bible School! I mean, there are a lot of plus' to staying a year. One is money would not be a problem, cause I would be able to work for a full year! And I would be able to get a car! In a way, I don't feel ready to go, leave my family and friends...and go clear up north[but, I would have a sister and brother-in-law that would live only a couple minutes away!! which would be amazing:]I don't know if that is God saying I shouldn't go......or if it is Gods will for me too go this year. I don't want to give up and say,"ok, there is no way I'll be able to get the money I need for Bible School, I'll just go the next year." No, I want to try, God will close the door if its His will, and He will also open them! :] I need to just stop worring about it and just trust God!

Well, all that to say, Hannah and I went to talk to Josh about it, I was on the verge of tears, just cause of the stress of everything going on. He said that he still wants us to make all the 1/3 by working, and that he would be praying for me. I know Josh can't just change the rules, cause other people are having trouble earning the money they need. And he can't change the rules half way through.

So on Monday, I handed the money, the whole $330, out of all the money I had earned so far. :-/ In a way, I am excited! Excited that I am and was able to give that money....that means I am going to Mexico.....which is absolutely amazing!!!! But it makes Bible School seem less and less of a chance. But seeing I worked so much last week, after I get that paycheck, and adding it to what I already had, I will be a little over 2/5 there!! I can already see the door opening for me to go this fall to college!! But its not too late for the door to close!

So, I just wanted to let you all know, well, for my frends here who didn't know, but for all my family and friends up north, who I don't get to talk to much!!!!

Sigh. ok, i think I will stop. just some thoughts that are running through my mind! I am just a little confused! So, if you could, could you plese pray that I will know what God wants me to do this next year, and that if its His will, I will be able to go to Mexico and Bible School! thanks!!! Love you all/megan marie :]

memories! ;)

Hmmm.....=) well, I have been wanted to put a couple mexico pictures up, but haven't been able to! But after the Mexico Meeting today......it really made me want to put some up!! Remember these?! ;) Enjoy! ;)

Ok, so, its pretty much official.....that I am going back to Mexico!! Lord willing!! I am so excited!! Please be praying that we will grow closer to God and come back changed!! =) Sigh, just thinking about going back, remembering what was taught and learnt, seeing all the ones we grew so close to and loved......just makes me smile from ear to ear!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :): )